Amazing Graze & My Craze

Ahhhhhh!!! Can your feel the relief?????? Aren't i radiating with RELIEF??????

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHAH!!!!

The tute that i walked into with only reading half of what i was supposed to read turned out pretty well actually! It was more of an open discussion where you throw out your ideas of the main themes brought up in the readings themselves. Since it's only the 2week, it was quite a light discussion but i managed to say "something" at least... not the word "SOMETHING" but something.. get me??? yeah.... hahhhahah!!! I'm so super hyper now...=)

Anyway, i know i shouldn't be so happy YET! I have 2 more tutes 2prepare for. Both involving 2 LONG ARTICLES with a MINIMUM of 5 pages... (note the words "long" & "minimum" )*SIGHS* ( here goes my hyperness... the sheer thought of it can just kill the joy and happiness of being tute-preparation-less) *SIGHS*... (-.-)

Uni today was EXTRAORDINARY for me... you know WHY???

Because i didn't sleep at all!!! Listened to the boring, mundane, lectures of ecosystems, population density, biodiversity... OMG!!! Like who caresss?????!!! i know, i know.... i should be a good student!! I thank God that i did A-Levels though. Eventhough i can't really remember everything, at least i have an idea of what the lecturer was droning on about.

[ I'm like so ya know.. proud... like ..yeah.......*flicks hair* (let's pretend i have long hair) ]

*White Chicks' Style*

MUAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!

Talking about long hair... Short or long is better???

SHORT

LONG

Great....i just realised i did the dumbest thing ever. I could have just put up an older pic of me with long hair rather than painting hair onto my scalp.... so DUH la me!!! Seriously... i think genieve is right!! This blurness can only be found in the "tan" genes.. at least, my family... (no offence to the not-so-blur-tans out there) *salut* hehe!

I'm supposed to go read something after this. Cause we're going out for a movie tonight. "AMAZING GRACE"- some sort of Christian movie. Apparently, it's about this court case..according to EeLin. I don't know... haven't seen the trailer. Hoping it'll be good.

Scene from movie

Yo dle -ae- hee-hooo!!!

Signing off........ *yawn*

ANTHROPOLOGISTS!!

I haven't finished my reading and i don't think i will...
I read through it and i daresay, i don't understand a word!!!! *sigh*

Anthropologists!!! Why can't they be more simple?? Why can't they write short and concise sentences rather than going on and on like a train travelling a hundred miles an hour just to convey one little TEENY WEENY point that can just be rewritten clearly into a short, neat and beautiful sentence??!!!!!

*sighs*

Reading it just gives me the headaches... seriously!!(-.-) Maybe that's why they're called anthropologists! Oh well, i guess i'll just go for my tute tomorrow and act like "i-tried-reading-but-never-understood-a-word" person. I'm sure the tutor would be "delighted" to have me. At least i tried.... *sighs*.

Kay.... enough of my complaints!

Auntie Marilyn shared a verse with me (through eelin) cause the bus which took me home on Sunday evening from church was late. I couldn't attend BS at hosanna... So, yah.. Anyway, it goes:


" You are my hiding place; You will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance. I will instruct you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you."
Psalms 32: 7,8


This verse is in line with what i've learnt over the week. I'm sure it was God's doing and i praise Him for His faithfulness!!

Another verse popped into my head a few seconds ago..


" Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight."


Sometimes, i forget how faithful He has been to me. When i look back through the chapters of my life, i realise that... there was only 1pair of footsteps in the sand at many instances in my life & those definitely...belonged to my Father. How could i be so unfaithful as to not trust wholly in Him and stop worrying?


I guess we're all humans and all of us do make mistakes. I, for one did. I forgot to give Him my whole trust. It is also written in the bible that... if He, our Father in Heaven can clothe the flowers and feed the ravens, how much more will He provide for us, His beloved children and heirs. So, why should we worry?


" All things work out for the good of those who love Him."


I'm putting my life at his altar and i know there's nothing to worry about! =)
As stated in Psalms 32: 7& 8, He will instruct and teach in the way i should go and He will counsel me and watch over me. And if i trust in Him, He in all his splendour will make my paths straight according to His perfect will. He'll do the same for you too! =)


He will never be able to straighten our paths if we don't let Him.


TRUST= Putting everything in His hands and LETTING Him take hold of what is OURS, making it HIS.


I think i'm becoming super duper duper long winded la....
Anyway, you get what i mean la...
Trust in Him..
Know that He is God..
Our provider, strength, refuge and most importantly FATHER.

Noodlilisciousness & unresolved resolution

The bio and linguistic tutes that i was supposed to do yesterday, are not completed. Actually, i haven't started yet! =( Another one of my procrastinated items. *sighs*
I really wanna change, really do...

Resolution before sem 2 started: Be more consistent in studying. Not last minute.
Status of Resolution: UNRESOLVED

Eating my noodle lunch...
Dreading the thought of hopping onto the bus in 25minutes time...
"yearning" to hear what the psychology lecturer has to say...
Can't wait to get back and go for a jog at Morialta...
CAN wait to do my tutes tonight...

My noodliliscious noodles! I lOVE CHILLI!!!!!

Kay... i gtg get ready!!!! Bla bla bla.. Yada Yada Yada.... TATAS!!!

Correlation between HECTICNESS and JOY

Yesterday was a really hectic day for me. I was out from 8 am all the way till 2.30pm having stuff to do from the city all the way to Paradise! Had a quick lunch and took a shower as soon as i got back, got dressed and went out at 3.30pm. Thank God for Genieve and Bryan. Bryan has a car, so he sent us both to Victoria Square to meet Cliff. Then, 3 of us walked to Paul's place to help out in preparing the food for the Newbies Dinner.

THANKS BRYAN FOR DRIVING & THANKS GEN FOR HAVING BRYAN!!!! hahahhahah!!


Ruth is such a good cook! She was so nice to come over and cook practically EVERYTHING!! We had Mapo Tau Foo, Roasted Chic Wings & Drums, Egg with Lap Cheong & Cantonese Style Vege. Sounds yummy huh? hehe =)

That reminds me..During dinner we were "girl-talking" (Sorry Paul, Warren & Cliff) about WEDDINGS! In the midst of talking...

Gen: My finger is stuck in your table.. (there's a metal loop at the sides of the table.. you know, part of the design)

Paul: Don't bluff la!!

Gen: really!! I'm not bluffing!!

EVERONE CHORUSED: HAHAHAAHHAHAAAHAAHAH!!!!

Especially me.... i was guffawing!! And the cutest thing was that her ring finger got stuck! of all fingers, her ring finger. Mel was saying.. maybe it was all because of the wedding talk. Paul brought soap to help lubricate her finger...i wanted to help but i couldn't. I was laughing sooo hard!!! It was SO hilarious and Gen.. you're SO cute!!! you really lighten my day!!


Note to GENIEVE:
You are blessed!! With so many talents that you may not even be aware of. You're blessed with humor and the ability to entertain people. The ability to make people laugh! A unique personality..You are truly blessed...!! =)


Paradise Dance Prac was one of my itineraries yesterday. This BU fashion- Spring, we're going to do some broadway extravaganza incorporating the " Hey Mambo!" song. It's gonna be fun! Very different from the jazz and contemporary thing we did for Winter Fashion Show in June (Pics are yet to be put up). We're gonna be working with little kids and adults this time. I think it's a good way of uniting people from all walks to life, all ages, all races. All just coming together and putting some of their time into serving God and giving an input into this evangelical event. We're all gonna dance for God like how David did! How great is that?!!


Talking bout evangelical event, E-Night is coming up! OCF will be holding this E-night thing on the 30th of August!

YES PEEPS, you read RIGHT!!!!

30th of AUGUST!! COME! COME! COME!

Kinda promoting it.. hehhe! =) Anyway, yeah... YOU!! Yes YOU.. YOU who are reading this at this very moment, you better get your bums bums over on the 30th! You will not regret it..=)

WHERE? HOW?
JUST ASK! muahahahhha...

Kay... enough of advertising. =)


I am supposed to go and do my tutorial readings for linguistics and Bio but i haven't got down to doing it yet. I should... and i WILL go do it after i finish typing this post. So much to do, so little time. The next few weeks are going to be hectic and i will rely on His strength to pull me through I'll remember to smile!!

So, you guys out there who are having a bad time.. be it today, this week, these few weeks, be encouraged! remember, he's with u throughout your journey... every sec, every minute, everyhour.. of everyday! =)


In spite of all the hecticness, there's still joy in the Lord!!!


HYPOTHESIS:
- Joy increases with hecticness. Therefore, there is a correlation between hecticness and joy.

Ohkay... i should stop being so sciency (no such word) but... u get what i mean! lol


I just remembered this Sunday school song:

I've got joy, joy, joy, joy
Down in my heart, YEAH!
Down in my heart
Down in my heart

I've got joy, joy, joy, joy
Down in my heart
Down in my heart TODAY!

klar... signing off now..
Gonna play some guitar
Then go do my tute..
Going to church at 4.40pm later..
See ya guys!!!

BE JOYFUL!!!!

PEACE

Sometimes, we go through challenging times in life. Times where we just do not know where to turn to. Times where, peace is all we need and want BUT as twisted as this world is, so is seeking solace & peace. At least, it may seem like it's twisted.

Finding peace may seem hard but maybe we're just looking in the wrong corners and spaces in this world..Find out how & and where it is found...

For with peace comes hope. And with hope comes happiness.

WHERE IS PEACE FOUND?

Feeling the breeze

Wrapped by a twirl of blackness

Lying facing the starry trapeze

I look with a sense of bleakness

The tornado of darkness

That blurring my vision

Familiar it is; but why so?

Lingering in my soul’s horizon

This darkness reveals nothing

Like a man clothed in sparkling jewels

With ephemeral depths is gleaming loathing

Reason after reason

Collide in my mind

What holds me in this prison;

My soul searches to find

Possible causes rise and sink

Does a roll of the dice speak?

Is this what life merely is?

A whirlpool of probabilities and magic tricks?

As doves in tricks

Emerging from top-hats and fiddlesticks

Where does peace come from?

That which keeps us alive in our form.

Like the merge of crossroads

Faith and the supernatural meet

There will be no burdens to tote

Only the presence or God to greet.

I wrote this piece quite recently. Didn't revise it much but i think there's much to be improved... Do comment and let me know if you have any ideas yea...? tHANKIES! =)

God Bless!

A Walk Through Rostrevor & Life

These past few days have been really eventful for me. Many things have taken place, most of it on the personal side.

Anyway, God has been good and i've been learning to listen to Him. I've learnt many things in the past few days.

I took 102 bus today unlike other days whereby i take 104/105 which takes me straight the Hosanna's doorstep (well, technically...) Yah, 102 stops at a housing area in Rostrevor. I had to walk approx 10mins to reach home but i had an awesome time.

Walking today, i realised how great He is, creator of all the flora and fauna around me. We, humans tend to get too caught up in our lives sometimes and forget how powerful our Savior is! I was speaking out aloud to Him all the way home and it was awesome...=) I might take 102 more often... to get off the hustle and bustle and into the quiet communion with Him through conversation.

Other than that, can exercise which i TOTALLY need... i SO can't fit into my pants!! I'm serious... the buttons might just fly out when i expire. You know, like in WHITE CHICKS the movie (the scene whereby they were trying to fit into this suit and the button broke the fitting room mirror...??) hahhhaha! That movie was SOOOOO hilarious!!! LOL +) I'm serious.. Xiaoxiao calls me "sweet potato". But i'm happy... like they say, "well-fed" . I'd rather be that than aneroxic ..Now, THAT is scary!

Kk... i'll go watch "house" now. I know this sounds a bit insane but i think i'm falling in love with him.....ermm.. kk, mayb his character... hehe! i don't know, he's rude and prude but he's just an interesting persona..=)

Chiaoz!

Sakais' Trip

A bunch of us went on a little trip which involved us visiting 3 different venues and eating over 6 varieties of sausages.... -.- We went last week and i know, me updating about it here is a BIT delayed but... yeah... =)

Anyway, the "sakai"s involved were:




SAKAI NO. 1:

Kaz, 23, Male
- Driver no. 1
- has a feminine side named Karen.









SAKAI NO. 2:

Ee Lin, 19, Female
- Assistant to Sakai no. 1
- blur (according to sakai no. 1)










SAKAI NO. 3:

Bryan, 19, Male
- Driver No. 2
- The Sakai Man himself!











SAKAI NO. 4:

Genieve, 19, Female
- Wife (wait.... or was it pet? LOL!) to Sakai no. 3
- known to talk to the animals (asking them to.. "Mate!! Mate!!".









SAKAI NO. 5:

Esther, 20, Female
- "bright" bimbotic passenger doing nothing except making noise & pigging on the way home.
- sakai enough to post up SUPER lame things such as this list.



We went to several places during our trip.
First up, we went to Cleland Wildlife Park. The animals were... how do you say, showing off their macho'ness for some reason... and i have no idea why... -.-

That bird stood there for AGES.. like," hello! We know you're handsome".
Ee Lin (sakai 2) almost got pecked by it just because she disrupted his free show.. LOL=)



That roo was sooo sexy and so is someone's bum! hahah!



Ee Lin & I and the 3/4 of Kaz..-.-



Feeding Roos




Evolution taking place from homo-sapien ---> a roo-roo-mapien (i dunno the species name) LOL!



All 5 of us

After Cleland, we went to Handorf (a german village) well-known for its German Sausages.. YUM!

MAKAN!

After that, we went to Mount Lofty to admire the scenery..

Then, Karen had a craving for Cheesecake... we drove here and there and in the end... WALLA!

Lemon Cheesecake



Choc Mudcake

More pics can be seen in Multiply... Long live the SAKAIS! MUAHAHHAH!

Footsteps in the Sand

This is a record breaker... This is the 3rd time i'm posting in the last 12hours (that doesn't even count as a day)!! =)

This ever-changing weather has finally taken its toll on me... I have DEFINITELY & INEVITABLY caught "THE" flu <>. In other words, i'm SICK la!! My head's throbbing like a train just ran over it BUT (yeah....there's a BUT) BUT, i can't sleep. Yes, you heard me right... i can't sleep. You can sing a thousand lullabys or make me count a gazillion sheep & i still wouldn't be able to sleep! It's like trying to shut down your freaking computer but it just gets STUCK; and no matter how many times you try, it just NEVER budges!

I guess i'm kind of emo right now... I've been trying to keep myself cheery and just when i think that i'm on the midst of succeeding, i fail. It's good to feel sad sometimes, to cry and let out all those pent-up feelings. After 2weeks, i shed tears AT LAST. I was too numb... too numb. At least, now i feel more human.

Pastor Steve kelly preached last Sunday about the power of our words and also about strengthening our FAITH. Faith is the foundation of a lasting relationship with God. It surpasses all humane worries and agitations. Having faith that God will straighten things out means that we put out trust wholly in Him knowing that He will carry us through. Just like the illustration of "Footsteps in the Sand".


FOOTSTEPS IN THE SAND

One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along
the beach with the Lord.

Across the dark sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene, he noticed
two sets of footprints in the sand,
one beloning to him and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,
he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life
there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the
very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it.

"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most
troublesome times in my life there is
only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when I needed you most
you would leave me."

The Lord replied "My precious, precious child,
I love you and would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffereing,
when you see only one set of footprints in the sand,
it was then that I carried you." Unknown Author

Having the knowledge that He will carry us through; is by itself a tremendous comfort when facing trying times. Therefore, words of complaints and whinings should not flow freely from our mouths for we have the assurance that things are in the Almighty's hands.

Therefore, i will continue to strive and face the trials of this world with faith that everything is going to be okay. With persistence, i will not complain. =)


Now, the GOOD NEWS:

It was a relieved to find out that i actually got a 'Conceded Pass' for my French. I don't think i wanna take my supplementary exam cuz i heard that only a limited number of units are allowed for supplementary exam throughout my whole 4 years. So, yeah.... Not that sure though, will find out more. Oh... btw, the mark was 49!!! 49!!! SOOOO annoying!!! Arrrgghhhhh!!! -.-

I'll be having a long day tomorrow. So, i think i better go get some rest.
NItezzzz........

*plumped on bed*
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZzzzzz.....

HATRED

Many of us can comprehend hatred in all it's intricacies. I, for one can never understand how it would be like to hate someone. Dislikes, i have but not hate.

HATE is too powerful a word. To say that we hate someone, would mean that we want to see the latter dead no matter what the circumstance (some may have different definitions...)

Every word uttered out of our mouth counts...
Every phrase we speak mean more than what we meant it to mean...
Every syllable holds power, though unseen...
As the saying, "a picture paints a thousand words".... so do words paint a thousand emotions.

For words can kill..
Not literally BUT indirectly..
It kills our very inner being..
And slashes those of others'..

So, we have to be careful with what we say and not take "hatred" as an unimportant feeling. Even if we do hate, let us not utter a word lest hurt anyone. Instead, let us seal our lips and cleanse our minds from it.

Wrote this poem long ago. Hope it means something to you people out there.

I HATE YOU

The line is heard all the time;
Not to be exchanged for a single dime.
It’s priceless,
though it seems meaningless.
But the story falls back;
Into the eternal night,
where nothing seems to be bright.
Nothing,
in that night-filled line.

“ I hate you”
That’s what we often hear,
like bells singing full of fury and fear.
Sourcing from the pit of darkness;
hidden from sight,
In the deepest core of a breathing creature;
Those that rule the beautiful pastures,
Handmade by the Maker of the Universe.

Though when it is sounded;
Just seems like a violin playing solo.
Without authority,
Without effect.

But there is a place,
Where the heart is drowning,
in that loud and eerie sound,
of a grand musical orchestra,
far, far away…

Till it is found again;
It'll be trapped,
in a land of feelings.
filling the place,
with bitterness.
with debilitating happiness.
Where sorrow and anger,
starts to sprout,
from a seed once sown.
When u never had a clue;
And said "I hate you".

Be encouraged.. =)

Cheers!

My Messy Room- Part 2 & NEW PHONE

HEY HEY....

I'm back with pictures of my room once again.. This time, with extra furniture and different arrangement. It's kinda officy, but i like it...Gives the cosy feeling. You know, when you stay a room which is too big and empty, you tend to feel that the space just ignites this gloominess and loneliness in you... Or maybe it's just me..-.-

Anyway, kinda "stole" the white table from the room opposite from mine since it's uninhabited AND it already has a desk of its own. The shelf was given to me by a friend who moved out 2 weeks ago. So yeah.... I am SO pleased with my room BUT the twist it that, the moving space is so small...Still, i'm pleased. Hehe! =)

My Messy Room Part 2- Scene 1

My Messy Room Part 2- Scene 2

Next highlight...
I got a new phone...
Well, indirectly got a new phone...
You see, i was currently using a prepaid number and i had to top up 30$ every month. Sometimes, 40$... But, normally the minimum would be 30$.
I realised that it'll be cheaper if i just get this post-paid number following the monthly cap system..
All i have to do is sign a 2 year contract with them. I have to pay 32$ and i get :

• 120$ worth of credit to any networks.
• 70$ worth of calls to similar network.
• unlimited MMS to similar network.

See how much i can save?? And i get the phone too.... SO, YAY!! =)

SONY ERICSSON Z610i

A Plastic Bag of SUFFOCATION

SUFFOCATING

"Multitudes of cascading droplets crashing down on me,
As if heaven pours spear after spear,
Of trials that pierce deep;
Sharpened blades incising my heart.
My breath is short, my head is spinning;
Could this be happening?
Is this not a dream?"

Wrote "Suffocating" in 5minutes...Believe it or not, that's how long i took. I guess it must have really poured out from deep within. This shows the extent of my suffocation.

SPEARS OF TRIALS:

• I lost both my grand-auntie and Uncle in the span of 1 & a half months.

Never had a chance to know them well. It's was more of.. i didn't take enough initiative to get to know them better.. Even when i had the chance. I feel so selfish...and GUILTY. But i know, that things like these do happen and i guess, it's God's way of relieving my uncle of his unbearable pain.

• A special friend left.

My special friend, X left Adelaide for America on a student exchange programme and i miss X lots already. X will be gone for 8 months and we parted on weird terms. I don't know how it would be like when we meet again next year... i don't even want to imagine. I saddens me and scares me.

• Casual chat with Dad.

Today, Dad shared with me things that he's never shared before. I hope he feels better.
(rest is P & C)
I LOVE YOU, DAD.

• Kinda failed FRENCH.

I got a mark in the range of 45-49%. The passing mark being 50%, I obviously, failed. I knew i was going to anyway... But God is good. I qualified for a supplementary exam. It's like a second chance. I'll keep my fingers crossed! (this is partly good and bad.-.-)

So... yeah.... All these things combine to make an ultimate PLASTIC BAG; which covers my head and SUFFOCATES me.

I know things will be alright in the end;
But where is the end?
For now, i do not see the end;
I just see the horizon of a never-ending ocean.
As round as the earth ,
These trials run in a circle;
Having no fixed end point,
Having no END.

God is good and faithful.

He NEVER forsook me, is NOT forsaking me & will NOT forsake me.

This verse seems so real and relevant in times like these.

["Cast your anxieties on Him for He cares for you..."] ~1 Peter 5: 7~

-DEATH-

DEATH

What does this word mean to you?

What is it's very essence?

Why does it happen...most of the time, unfairly?

MY ANSWER TO THAT...
I'm not so sure myself.

I've experienced 2 deaths in 1 and a half months.
My grand-auntie passed away early June.
A few days ago, her son (my uncle) passed away due to cancer.
My deepest condolences to his family.

I was flabbergasted!! Shocked!! I have no words to describe how speechless i was... OK, i was SPEECHLESS (full-stop).

I met Uncle David and his wife, Auntie Pauline soon after my arrival. I didn't know them before that..I think i posted up something about them where i spent my first Chinese New Year abroad with them.They're great people and sometimes we ask, " Why does DEATH pull great and awesome people down...?"

I guess we'll never find an answer to that cause DEATH by itself is unfathomable.
Let alone it's reason behind pulling lives apart.

Only GOD knows.

We'll know when we encounter DEATH face to face.


I feel utterly GUILTY.
I didn't call my uncle to check and say hi and all.
And now.. i'll NEVER have a chance to ever again.
I feel HORRIBLE.

I guess i'll just leave this post at this.

MY DEEPEST CONDOLENCES TO THE BELOVED FAMILY OF UNCLE DAVID GOH.