TO SHELLEY

TO: Shelley jie jie!!!

SORRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYYY.... for keeping u waiting!! *sigh*

I did it again people!!! AGAIN!!!!!

I need discipline!!!!

DISAPPOINTMENT

I am OFFICIALLY the piggiest pig EVER...


*sigh*

I was supposed to go for class...

Before i know it...

*KNOCK KNOCK* *KNOCK KNOCK*

*yawn~* stumbles out of bed and opened the door..

Patrick: hi!

Esther: Hi.....

Patrick: can i take the usb from u??

Esther: Yea... sure.. what time is it now??? *looks at clock* SHIT!!!! 11.40am???!!! (my tute is at 11) I'm so disappointed in myself..

Hence, the reason i'm sitting here blogging bout this....

disappointed and arrrrgghhh-ING..

Ta~

BU FASHION PARADE (Spring 07)

HELLLLOOOOOOO!!!!!!

I'm back after such a long time..


Things i've been up to for the past one week:

(1) Psychology report preparation portfolio
(2) Linguistics group report
(3) Monday - Thursday night practises for BU.
(4) Human Biology Report (completed at 5am yesterday...by God's grace, it's completed!!!!)
(5) E night practises on Sunday


It's been really hectic for me and i really THANK GOD for sustaining me both physically and mentally. He's been so faithful. Despite the extreme lack of sleep and rest for the past one week, i'm still as healthy as usual.. as active..as blur.....(-.-) lol! It means Esther is still Esther and that's what matters. Don't wanna go bonkers in any way!


So, God's been good!

BU was good and i believe than some people were saved that night through Pas Jane's short sharing. The dance was fun! Anyway, some of the photos of BU Night (spring 07).

Michelle did my hair before BU because they said that there might not be enough hairstylists on that day. So, here's Michelle's work of art themed "italiano in 50s for tourist character".

Side view (i really liked it Mich.. thanks!)

My hair stylist(mich) and i.. *applause* lol!

Chanelle & i with our costumes....(i looked like a ripe tomato!) And then, when i arrived for make-up, they said there were enough hair-stylist..so, they restyled my hair.

Hannah & i (the old lady look is so cool!)




After BU, Patrick, Lin, Leonard & i took the bus home... at the bus stop....




Leo's & i




Ee lin , Me & Leo's hand..-.-

More pics to be up soon..! =)


E-Night is happening on this Thursday night! I'm SO excited and i'm praying and hoping that God would be able to move in all His splendour on that night. Hopefully there'll be no glitches and that everything will go on smoothly by God's grace.

If you don't have anything to do on this Thursday....

VENUE: Eclipse Room (Lvl 4, Hughes Building)
DATE: 30th August 07, THURSDAY
TIME: 6.30pm
THEME: The Choice

*refreshments and transport provided

So, do consider coming if you want to know more about what "THE CHOICE" is gonna be all about...

I'm SO tired... only slept 5hours yest cause of my BIO REPORT la!!! I really need to zzzzz....

Good NightzzzzzZZZZZZZZ...

Why PIGS can't wake each other up

I'm so disappointed in myself....

MC & i are PIGS!! lol...



Esther: oh... late already... wake up wake up..!!

MC: okie okie...

Esther: i'm gonna sleep a bit more, wake me up k? we can't miss the bus.

MC: okie okie okie

After 25 minutes.....

Esther: Shiitttteeee!!!!! We missed the bus!!!

MC: Shittteeee!!!!

this convo repeated TWICE!! omgg.... we were both soooo disappointed in ourselves. Did my tute, then didn't go...
*sigh*

Oinking off~

MARY-AT-THE-VILLE

THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO MY MOM

I was just telling Lin about this incident yesterday. I don't know whether it's just purely annoying or hilarious. It was SOOOOO annoying when it took place but now, when i look back.. it's HILARIOUS!!

My mom and i are just total opposites. It's amazing how different we are.

STORY

Once upon a time, i was talking on the phone with my mom. We don't call each other often so, it was the time to talk about recent happenings etc. etc. etc. My mom has applied for PR to come over to Aussie and bring my sisters and brother along with her. If this plan works out, they'll be here next year. My 2nd sister, Eunice applied for this High School named...., "MARYATVILLE HIGH SCHOOL". The conversation goes.....

Esther: So, has the Maryatville (pronounced MAR -YAT as in "ya") school accepted Eunice's application? Any news from them?

Mom: What MaryAAAT??!! It's Mar-yat-ville!!! As in mary-at-the-ville!!!

Esther: *smacks head* OMGG!!! Same la!!

Mom: no!! it's not.... it's Mary-at-the-ville, Mary-at-the-ville... you know, MARY AT the VILLE??!!

Esther: *sighhhhhsss* Mummy!!!! For once, can u NOT correct everything??? *bangs head on table sounding annoyed*

Mom: Cannot.

Esther: aiyoooooooo!!!!!!! Fine fine! MARY-AT-THE-VILLE, okayyy????

----------SILENCE----------

Esther: *giggles*

Mom: *giggles*

Esther: Aiyoooo.... yea, as i was saying..............

And it goes on...

--------------------------------END OF 1ST SCENE----------------------------------------



Another incident during the same phonecall...


Esther: bla...bla....bla... (saying some stuff)

Mom: bla..bla..bla... (some more stuff). okla... bye!

Esther: *cluelessly* HUH????!!!! okla... bye??!!!

Mom: nothing to say already then bye la....

Esther: *smacks head...AGAIN* omygosh! ohhhkiiieeeeee....... why like that one!!! *SIGH*

Mom: I'm hungry, wanna go buy "pau".

Esther: ohhhkieeeeee......fine....

the convo goes on.......


---------------------------------END OF 2ND SCENE--------------------------------------


I almost got slap marks all over my forehead OhkAY!! Kept on smacking myself...LOL! (nah..jz over-exaggerating) =)


What's with English teachers and correcting MARY-AT-THE-VILLES??I understand if one wants to correct major errors in pronunciations, grammars etc. BUT mary-at-the-villes?? i seriously DO NOT care if Mary is at the ville or at the farm or baking cake in the toilet..Anyways, it was hilarious!!!LOL! Maybe it's this "skill" teachers are trained to have... Used to it already though..lol


Thank my mom for correcting me all those years since i was little though... if she hadn't i wouldn't be speaking and writing the way i am today...


Thank you TEACHERS and LECTURERS out there. Just don't get too carried away with Mary or even Marion... okiessss??!! haha!!


P/s: Mummy if u read this, don't u think that phonecall was funny?!

Miss Gorgeous

This post is a bit delayed.. lol.
Anyways, presenting the dumbest thing i've done this month!
2nd dumbest in Adelaide. The first being the locked out of library incident.. haha!
You can find that one under the label "Dum Dum Ness".

I bought this pair of boots for a fairly good price. I really think it's a pretty good price. Converted to M ringgit, would be....RM150. Plus, it looks gorgeous!

Well, what d'ya know!! Miss gorgeous turned out to hurt me soooo BAD!!!!

Miss Gorgeous

After church, leo(L) and i decided to go get some stuff and have lunch at Rundle mall. Quarter of the way, i couldn't take it anymore... they KILL!!! I'm used to wearing heels and all (people who know me, know that) But this one was just a nightmare....

I tried to TAHAN.... then, couldn't take it anymore... so, i took it off and walked barefoot all the way to rundle! Then, that stupish L took his shoes off as well!!I felt soo bad, man... So, 2 dungus walking barefoot... not exactly bare but.... you get what i mean! =)

My feet

L (*smacks head*)

We hunted for slippers that i could change into and in the end we bought this purple bedroom slipper. Under normal circumstances, i would NEVER in a million years get it but i have to admit.... it's pretty cute! HAHA!

Purpliee

Welcome to ESTHER'S DOMAIN OF DUM DUM NESS!!!

BU Fashion Parade

This coming week is gonna be rehearsals rehearsals and REHEARSALS for..


This time round, we're gonna be doing a broadway-ish dance. With lotsa people on stage. It's gonna be fun! =)


The last BU, we did a jazz and contemporary piece. I was only involved in the Jazz.


Pics will be up.. hopefully... +)

~FRUST~

I'm so pissed at myself!!!
I'm so dead for my Linguistics Assignment!!
I thank God for the change in dateline!!
I hope my group members would not be pissed with me!!
They have not replied my email..hopefully they will soon!!


Now, THAT looks like how i'm feeling now.... arrghh!!!!!!

Signing off~

Unrequited Effort

My friend, Y is going through this small tiny time in his life which is not what we would consider pleasant. Looking at him i see myself and reflected are similar past experiences.

I dare say that we all go through this situation at some point of our lives.

A time where people whom you seek acceptance from; for example friends and peers, just fail you. They fail to see you for who you are. Instead, they judge you with the little they know. We sometimes ask, "why?"

Like there's no black and white in life, there's no wrong and right. At least, in this situation, there isn't.
Which party is at fault and which is not, we can never tell.

Unrequited Effort


Reality, he hits and startles me
My heart ponders with every beat it takes
How much have i to love to be loved in return?
Why is it that the mountains i lay down
Do not bring back even a shilling's worth?


The rumblings conquering my mind
They kill the speed of light
Tormenting me with chants
Of how much i have lost
Of the big part of my heart it has cost.


I wish I had not tried
I wish I had not pried
But wishing to reverse time
Is pointless in itself
Do the serpents soar as eagles do?


By trying, i yielded more pain
As adding salt to the wound
My attempts scraped me of my pride
Scarring my innermost feelings
A living being can only take as much.


This three-part sonata will be concluded
With an ignorant pause at the end
I will let go of this bitterness
However i will try no more
But dwell in golden silence.

Esther

Be strong and never doubt who you are just because someone thinks less of you than he or she ought to.

Be Encouraged! =)

Amazed

Listening to Michael Buble..
Wind blowing through the window..
At long last, had sufficient sleep last night..
It was & IS still great..


I was on the bus the other day and i saw this African-American. Then it struck me.. how POWERFUL God is. His ability to create us all with different skin tones, different hair quality, different features (and the list goes on).. is just utterly AMAZING!


I was so amazed...

I know he created the whole universe, the nine planets, the SUN, MOON, STARS.
I know he created animals , plants and the systems that make them function.
I know he created mountains, seas and soil just by a word from His mouth.

BUT..
What captivates me the most is,
US...His most precious creation.
How he made us SO different in SO many areas just shouts out His POWER.

Sam said something last night at ocf that i thought was really beautiful and the best ever illustration of how GREAT God is.

"He holds the world in the palm of His hands..."
That's how BIG He is..
And having that authority tells us how "WHOW" he is..

I'm going on and on and on..
Beating around the bush..
And i think i should stop now...LOL

Tataz~

Of Roses & Rocks

I was talking to my friend, X yesterday...
X is going through a somewhat complicated situation with this other person Y...
We were joking around and i told X, i'll make up a poem and dedicate it to her...LOL!

Then 30mins ago i thought, hey... "why not??"
So, here it is...
It's a teeny weeny bit crappy...
i just assembled everthing that came into my mind...
I still think it's w-e-ii-rrr-d... but nvm la... Just for the fun of it!!
muahhahahaha!!

X, you didn't expect this did you....? Anyway, this is for you...hehe!=)

Of Roses and Rocks



If only i know how he feels,
If only i know what he thinks.
Here at the footstool i'll kneel;
Praying, "Help me Lord, I'm at my brink..."


At the brink of the cliff
Where pointed rocks lay beneath,
Like spears it would penetrate,
How am i to breathe?


Not knowing if these rocks may evolve
Into a cushion of thornless roses;
The centre at which butterflies revolve,
As in imaginary realisations of romantic proses.


Nothing can i do but wonder;
Wondering if rocks would break to reveal roses
Wondering if butterflies will emerge in their graceful poses
Wondering if pointed rocks would replace my proses


Sitting in my room i pray,

"Lord, help me to hang onto this cliff
Guard my heart and make it Yours
Push me over if it is Your will
For then i know, what awaits me is real."

dedicated to X my beloved friend

kk.. i think i'll go grab a 30-minute nap. We have overnight prayer meet tonight... i hope i last! =)

A lovely thing called...DANCE

I found these pictures while googl-ing...
I love dancing...
I miss dancing...
I adore these pics...

Scene from "Take the Lead"

Random Pic

Tango

My abandoned shoe





Lovers & Dancers

There's so much attitude & expression of emotions...
Love it!

CEMETERIES

CEMETERIES... what inspired me to post this entry...?

My Human Biology project.


You see, we're supposed to gather data of the age of deaths for people in a specified era of our choice. (ie. 1980-1990...in tens). Then they went on to explain that students in the years before gathered their data by going to the cemetery. Walking among tombstones, reading dates, age of death etc. etc..

You see...i have NO problem doing all that except the "walking among the tombstones" part. Just sounded a bit eerie.. =S My classmates, Adrian and Pamela were like YAY!!!! Let's go at night!!!Let's do a roadtrip to the various cemeteries!!! And i was just yawning and going... "Oh Bother!!! It's freaking 9.30 in the morning!!"


Then, i realised.. there's nothing eerie about places like that. I mean, all the talk about GHOSTS and stuff.. We're all influenced by the media. Television, Books, Magazines...causing all these unnecessary boughs of fear!


Some of us can really imagine. I CAN'T watch horror movies.. i'll just remember the images too well and re-conjure them in my imagination. Of all times.... when i'm trying to sleep. But i know friends who can watch and laugh OR watch, get scared and forget just like that! =)
























Kk... got lots to write about ghosts vs. unfamiliar evil spirits and all

But i think i'll not go on... cause i have to finish my tute for tomorrw!!
Again last minute...
Will update tonight, after i'm done with my linguistics tute..

~BOO YAH!!


To Eunice: Put up your long hair picture after you're done painting it on... haha!

Amazing GRACE

The movie "Amazing Grace" opened my eyes...

To see beyond what i have... beyond what we, fortunate folks possess.

To the injustices of this world.

To how much more we should show grace, the way Christ did.

To be set apart, consecrated from the world and to stand up for what we think is right.

To how AMAZING His grace is to us...who are so undeserving.



GRACE in general, according to the dictionary:

- a manifestation of favor

- mercy, pardon, clemency



GRACE theologically, according to the dictionary:

-	the freely given, unmerited favor and love of God.

-	the influence or spirit of God operating in humans to regenerate or strengthen them.

-	a virtue or excellence of divine origin: the Christian graces.

I just realised that there's a similarity in both the general and theological definitions of GRACE. Obviously, it's the word "favor" which i've typed in bold.


Then, i realised... it's the manifestation of favor from one person to another AND it's the manifestation of UNMERITED favor and love of God towards men respectively.

Unmerited?? It has many definitions. So, i dictionary.com-ed.
MERIT: to be worthy of, to deserve.

I was like...., "Ahhhh... i see.

" It's God's manifestation of favor and love to those who are not worthy of & who do not deserve it."


BINGO!