Suffering, Endurance & Hope

I'm here... at last...?? Sorry Ee Lin, Alvin and whoever who's been here and not found anything since my last post. Speaking of which, my "to-do-list"...I didn't accomplish one item on the list, not letting my blog die. And YES it die-ded again!! I'm so not good at keeping resolutions but i'll do it this time... (hopefully??) lol!

Talking about hope, i came across this verse today while reading Romans.


Romans 5:1-5 (RSV)

Therefore, since we are justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. Through him we have obtained access to this grace in which we stand and we rejoice in our hope of sharing the glory of God. More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character and character produces hope, and hope does not disappoint us, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit which has been given to us.


The extract is really encouraging as well as enlightening...

Talking about hope... I think i wrote a poem on hope sometime ago last year in this blog..
But for your information..
More of my poems are posted on
http://www.8hop.com/profile.php?user=eternal-memories

kays... will update soon...

BACK TO LIFE!

Hey people!!!

Sorry to you guys who came all the way here and ended up staring at the same things splashed on this page the last time you came over...
Jessie was right! my blog was DEAD and now... It's ALIVEEEE!!!!!!

Partly because i was in the exam preparation mode for the past one month... Not like i studied everyday but i guess because i haven't been studying AT ALL the whole of this semester. A girl has to catch up, doesn't she? *smiles innocently* LOL!

Anyway, you would have guessed that me posting this would mean exams are OVER!! And i pray so so so hard that i would not have to take a supplementary. This is the first time seriously studied for an exam and it turned out so bad... But it's all in God's hands. I'll just have to wait and see.


Let's see... what else...??

It's SUMMMMMMERRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!

Soooo HOT! But the sun feels good after those long months of winter... That is, IF it isn't scorching and laser-ing my skin into pieces.
So gonna enjoy my holidays before i fly back on the 8th..

Talking bout flying back.. I can't believe i'm saying this but, i think i miss MALAYSIA.
Was walking in a shopping mall today known as the "largest in Adelaide" but all i could think about was midvalley and wan U.. all the times we went to hang out and stuff..


My "to-do" & "to-go-to" list before i go home:

- picnic-ing in the Botanic Gardens
- borrow and read story books from the library
- finish "HOUSE"
- the beach: Glenelg/Henley
- finish composing a song
- watch a movie a day(on the comp)
- Harbor Town shopping with NO cash
- search for a place to move into next year
- spend precious time with friends
- cross my fingers and hope for good results
- not letting my blog DIE again...

so on, so forth.... etc. etc. etc.


Hmmm.... more updates soon! Ta~

unsubstantial substance

Hi people!!

I'm back after almost A month of disappearance...
And i am officially ALMOST SICK..
Note the word ALMOST...lol
And i have an assignment to finish by this Friday and more the next and next next and next next next week... and EXAMS are in a MONTH!!!
I think i'm so bummed... arrggghhh.... DOOMED!!!

Ohkie... i'm not here to complain.
Sorry for the SUPER delayed update.

So many pics to upload but the internetis so freaking slow...

Klaz..... i know this post has no substance....
Really no mood to type now..
My head hurts and my body's aching and i need to submit the assignment which i have not started on yet on FRIDAY.

Whopppieeeee!!!!!!

Tcare people...
I'll be BACK!!
~tatazzzz~

Past, Present & Future

I found this somewhere, wrote it down and just re-read it. It's put in such a nice way and there's truth in those words as well.

I asked God, "how do i get the best out of life?"

He answered, " never regret your pasts, handle the present with confidence, prepare for the future without fear."

Then He added, "Drop the fear, keep the faith. Don't believe your doubts and never doubt your beliefs."

It's so easy to read and understand those words but it's harder to apply it to our own lives, don't you think so?

But i think it's a really good illustration and way to actually bring ourselves to greater heights. Because regrets pull us down and keeps us in an underground dungeon of " i shouldn't have", "it would be so different if i just..." and "i should have done this instead of that".

It's hard to prepare for the future without fear. It's like trying to walk blindfold at the peak of a mountain oblivious to where all the ridges and edges are. One step might just kill. But i guess, without fear...we'd be able to open a door of possibilities. Then we would not have to regret "not knowing" or "not doing" something that we thought we should have done later on in the future.

I'm talking in circles and circles and circles againnnnn.. I'm ssssoooooo "cheong hei"..-.-

Anyways, just a train of thoughts..

Cheers~

LIES vs. TRUTHS

It's 12.58am and i i have to get up at 7.00am which is about...6 hours away! I decided about 20minutes ago that i would go to bed early tonight cause i'm totally bummed out, zapped out, electricity-less...???? Whatever it is, i'm just SO exhausted.


What am i doing here?
~ I'll answer that... cause i cannot go to bed with this load hanging off my shoulders.


Is wasting my time writing crappy stuff over here even worth it?
~ I'll answer that again... YES. Where else can i let out my pent up feelings? I don't believe in jotting down EVERY single detail of my wondrous life on this page amongst the millions of websites. But, i do believe that it's a place to release some emotions, feelings, beliefs, thoughts etc. etc. etc.

And obviously, since i'm here eventhough my brain, eyes and head are killing me proves the existence of a multitude of turmoils going on within me...
I AM anything but.... HAPPY.


Came home happy..
Ate my burger happily..
Felt tired but contented..
Felt happy even though i'd only get a maximum of 6hours of sleep..
Till i witnessed something.


Yeah..... and don't even try to guess, cause you wouldn't be able to..
Whoever who knows me and happen to read this, just don't ask WHAT or WHY cause you would not get a single valid answer from me. It would mean the world to me if you just DO NOT ask. I know it's weird writing all these and then asking u guys not to ask but it's just a place to pour out my soul to myself.. If you get what i mean. Thanks dears... =)


Sometimes, i wonder if the world is filled with lies.
Does deception rule mankind?
Does deceit lurk at every corner?
Even in the very pastures where i put my utmost trust in?

Or..

Is it just my senses that are over-working?
The subconscious part of my mind reeling off unknowingly?

All i know is that,
Our surroundings are no more genuine..
I do not know what's real and what's fake..
What i believe is true might just bounce back at me and stun me right in the face..

But still,
I cannot say for sure..
Isn't a question a question till we get an answer?
I have not gotten my answer YET and i doubt i EVER will
For the world is the world
And the world is a place where some questions are left unanswered

And i'm still asking the questions:
Is it deception or is it genuine?
Are they lies or merely truths?

I can't say for sure and will never know for sure.

Still holding on His love and guidance for:

HIS LOVE NEVER FAILS.

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Falling & Learning

My nickname on MSN:

"Humans are Complicated - How much more do we have to fall to learn? If learning is learning, ONE fall would be enough. But it is never enough for us, is it? At least, not for ME."


I was doing a flashback on my life just a week ago and i realised that no matter how many times i fall and tell myself i'm never going to fall for the same issue EVER again, i WILL still fall somehow..on purpose or even, accidentally. It's just ironic how we (sorry if you aren't..) okay.... I, do that all over again eventhough i know what the outcome would be.

For instance, i pray... "Lord, thank you so much for helping me in my exams. I couldn't have done it without you. i'm going to be more hardworking and not do last minute studying anymore. Then, i do it AGAIN. Then, i thank God AGAIN" ...and then it goes ON and ON and ON... I really can't imagine the greatness of God's patience and tolerance... Who in the world can "tahan" a child like that??! hehe..
But still, my point is that, no matter how many times we tell ourselves that this is the LAST stupid thing we'll do, it never IS the last and never WILL be..

Sometimes, i think that falling in itself is the JOY of being who we are and it is definitely the JOY of life. I wouldn't want to know all the RIGHT things, do all the RIGHT things and not feel the JOY in falling, learning and falling again... If we do ALL the right things ALL of the time, what would we learn other than "This is right and anything other than that is wrong"..???

Without falling, we would never feel pain..the anguish of a slash across our hearts. Then, we would never know that.."Whow, a 'knife' can actually hurt me..". A "knife" could be anything...

Without falling, there wouldn't be a scar. We wouldn't even know that a scar would appear after the wound heals. A scar resembles something that we can look back at and say, "yeah...i remember this thing happening and when i look at it again, i'll remember not to repeat what i did.."

Without falling, we would never know how it feels like to heal. The painful and confusing process and the victorious battle against the WHYs.

Without falling, we would never be who we are at the moment. And not being who we are, it is just pointless in itself, isn't it?

So, my conclusion would be that "falling" in life's context is what contributes to the best of who we are right now. Personally, i think it's great to fall and learn because it helps me understand people more. It helps me to be able to say, "I've been in your shoes and i know how you feel". I've always believed that the little things you do might mean the world to others. The little things like listening or just by being there when one is going through trying times might mean a lot more than u can imagine.

So, all the "wrong" things i've done in the past which caused me to fall are things which taught me and i don't regret them. Like what some say, "Why regret when it's done? What is done is done. Regretting would just pull you into a whirlpool of confusion". I used to be someone who goes, "I shouldn't have done that...etc." But after i came over here to Adelaide, i believe that whatever is done is done and i have no regrets because...isn't learning a lifelong act? And doesn't learning come from falling? So, no matter how many times i fall, i would be eager to learn and through learning only can i earnestly understand the similar things that others go through.

I've always wanted to help but like my mom says, "You can't satisfy everyone in the world". And it IS true.. but falling and learning opens up wider doors to knowing how others feel in certain life situations.

I've been writing non-stop and if i shouldn't go on and on cause i might bore you.... that is, if there is a "YOU" reading this. hehe =) Hope this post actually relates to u guys..

~CHEERS~

TO SHELLEY

TO: Shelley jie jie!!!

SORRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYYY.... for keeping u waiting!! *sigh*

I did it again people!!! AGAIN!!!!!

I need discipline!!!!

DISAPPOINTMENT

I am OFFICIALLY the piggiest pig EVER...


*sigh*

I was supposed to go for class...

Before i know it...

*KNOCK KNOCK* *KNOCK KNOCK*

*yawn~* stumbles out of bed and opened the door..

Patrick: hi!

Esther: Hi.....

Patrick: can i take the usb from u??

Esther: Yea... sure.. what time is it now??? *looks at clock* SHIT!!!! 11.40am???!!! (my tute is at 11) I'm so disappointed in myself..

Hence, the reason i'm sitting here blogging bout this....

disappointed and arrrrgghhh-ING..

Ta~

BU FASHION PARADE (Spring 07)

HELLLLOOOOOOO!!!!!!

I'm back after such a long time..


Things i've been up to for the past one week:

(1) Psychology report preparation portfolio
(2) Linguistics group report
(3) Monday - Thursday night practises for BU.
(4) Human Biology Report (completed at 5am yesterday...by God's grace, it's completed!!!!)
(5) E night practises on Sunday


It's been really hectic for me and i really THANK GOD for sustaining me both physically and mentally. He's been so faithful. Despite the extreme lack of sleep and rest for the past one week, i'm still as healthy as usual.. as active..as blur.....(-.-) lol! It means Esther is still Esther and that's what matters. Don't wanna go bonkers in any way!


So, God's been good!

BU was good and i believe than some people were saved that night through Pas Jane's short sharing. The dance was fun! Anyway, some of the photos of BU Night (spring 07).

Michelle did my hair before BU because they said that there might not be enough hairstylists on that day. So, here's Michelle's work of art themed "italiano in 50s for tourist character".

Side view (i really liked it Mich.. thanks!)

My hair stylist(mich) and i.. *applause* lol!

Chanelle & i with our costumes....(i looked like a ripe tomato!) And then, when i arrived for make-up, they said there were enough hair-stylist..so, they restyled my hair.

Hannah & i (the old lady look is so cool!)




After BU, Patrick, Lin, Leonard & i took the bus home... at the bus stop....




Leo's & i




Ee lin , Me & Leo's hand..-.-

More pics to be up soon..! =)


E-Night is happening on this Thursday night! I'm SO excited and i'm praying and hoping that God would be able to move in all His splendour on that night. Hopefully there'll be no glitches and that everything will go on smoothly by God's grace.

If you don't have anything to do on this Thursday....

VENUE: Eclipse Room (Lvl 4, Hughes Building)
DATE: 30th August 07, THURSDAY
TIME: 6.30pm
THEME: The Choice

*refreshments and transport provided

So, do consider coming if you want to know more about what "THE CHOICE" is gonna be all about...

I'm SO tired... only slept 5hours yest cause of my BIO REPORT la!!! I really need to zzzzz....

Good NightzzzzzZZZZZZZZ...

Why PIGS can't wake each other up

I'm so disappointed in myself....

MC & i are PIGS!! lol...



Esther: oh... late already... wake up wake up..!!

MC: okie okie...

Esther: i'm gonna sleep a bit more, wake me up k? we can't miss the bus.

MC: okie okie okie

After 25 minutes.....

Esther: Shiitttteeee!!!!! We missed the bus!!!

MC: Shittteeee!!!!

this convo repeated TWICE!! omgg.... we were both soooo disappointed in ourselves. Did my tute, then didn't go...
*sigh*

Oinking off~

MARY-AT-THE-VILLE

THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO MY MOM

I was just telling Lin about this incident yesterday. I don't know whether it's just purely annoying or hilarious. It was SOOOOO annoying when it took place but now, when i look back.. it's HILARIOUS!!

My mom and i are just total opposites. It's amazing how different we are.

STORY

Once upon a time, i was talking on the phone with my mom. We don't call each other often so, it was the time to talk about recent happenings etc. etc. etc. My mom has applied for PR to come over to Aussie and bring my sisters and brother along with her. If this plan works out, they'll be here next year. My 2nd sister, Eunice applied for this High School named...., "MARYATVILLE HIGH SCHOOL". The conversation goes.....

Esther: So, has the Maryatville (pronounced MAR -YAT as in "ya") school accepted Eunice's application? Any news from them?

Mom: What MaryAAAT??!! It's Mar-yat-ville!!! As in mary-at-the-ville!!!

Esther: *smacks head* OMGG!!! Same la!!

Mom: no!! it's not.... it's Mary-at-the-ville, Mary-at-the-ville... you know, MARY AT the VILLE??!!

Esther: *sighhhhhsss* Mummy!!!! For once, can u NOT correct everything??? *bangs head on table sounding annoyed*

Mom: Cannot.

Esther: aiyoooooooo!!!!!!! Fine fine! MARY-AT-THE-VILLE, okayyy????

----------SILENCE----------

Esther: *giggles*

Mom: *giggles*

Esther: Aiyoooo.... yea, as i was saying..............

And it goes on...

--------------------------------END OF 1ST SCENE----------------------------------------



Another incident during the same phonecall...


Esther: bla...bla....bla... (saying some stuff)

Mom: bla..bla..bla... (some more stuff). okla... bye!

Esther: *cluelessly* HUH????!!!! okla... bye??!!!

Mom: nothing to say already then bye la....

Esther: *smacks head...AGAIN* omygosh! ohhhkiiieeeeee....... why like that one!!! *SIGH*

Mom: I'm hungry, wanna go buy "pau".

Esther: ohhhkieeeeee......fine....

the convo goes on.......


---------------------------------END OF 2ND SCENE--------------------------------------


I almost got slap marks all over my forehead OhkAY!! Kept on smacking myself...LOL! (nah..jz over-exaggerating) =)


What's with English teachers and correcting MARY-AT-THE-VILLES??I understand if one wants to correct major errors in pronunciations, grammars etc. BUT mary-at-the-villes?? i seriously DO NOT care if Mary is at the ville or at the farm or baking cake in the toilet..Anyways, it was hilarious!!!LOL! Maybe it's this "skill" teachers are trained to have... Used to it already though..lol


Thank my mom for correcting me all those years since i was little though... if she hadn't i wouldn't be speaking and writing the way i am today...


Thank you TEACHERS and LECTURERS out there. Just don't get too carried away with Mary or even Marion... okiessss??!! haha!!


P/s: Mummy if u read this, don't u think that phonecall was funny?!

Miss Gorgeous

This post is a bit delayed.. lol.
Anyways, presenting the dumbest thing i've done this month!
2nd dumbest in Adelaide. The first being the locked out of library incident.. haha!
You can find that one under the label "Dum Dum Ness".

I bought this pair of boots for a fairly good price. I really think it's a pretty good price. Converted to M ringgit, would be....RM150. Plus, it looks gorgeous!

Well, what d'ya know!! Miss gorgeous turned out to hurt me soooo BAD!!!!

Miss Gorgeous

After church, leo(L) and i decided to go get some stuff and have lunch at Rundle mall. Quarter of the way, i couldn't take it anymore... they KILL!!! I'm used to wearing heels and all (people who know me, know that) But this one was just a nightmare....

I tried to TAHAN.... then, couldn't take it anymore... so, i took it off and walked barefoot all the way to rundle! Then, that stupish L took his shoes off as well!!I felt soo bad, man... So, 2 dungus walking barefoot... not exactly bare but.... you get what i mean! =)

My feet

L (*smacks head*)

We hunted for slippers that i could change into and in the end we bought this purple bedroom slipper. Under normal circumstances, i would NEVER in a million years get it but i have to admit.... it's pretty cute! HAHA!

Purpliee

Welcome to ESTHER'S DOMAIN OF DUM DUM NESS!!!

BU Fashion Parade

This coming week is gonna be rehearsals rehearsals and REHEARSALS for..


This time round, we're gonna be doing a broadway-ish dance. With lotsa people on stage. It's gonna be fun! =)


The last BU, we did a jazz and contemporary piece. I was only involved in the Jazz.


Pics will be up.. hopefully... +)

~FRUST~

I'm so pissed at myself!!!
I'm so dead for my Linguistics Assignment!!
I thank God for the change in dateline!!
I hope my group members would not be pissed with me!!
They have not replied my email..hopefully they will soon!!


Now, THAT looks like how i'm feeling now.... arrghh!!!!!!

Signing off~

Unrequited Effort

My friend, Y is going through this small tiny time in his life which is not what we would consider pleasant. Looking at him i see myself and reflected are similar past experiences.

I dare say that we all go through this situation at some point of our lives.

A time where people whom you seek acceptance from; for example friends and peers, just fail you. They fail to see you for who you are. Instead, they judge you with the little they know. We sometimes ask, "why?"

Like there's no black and white in life, there's no wrong and right. At least, in this situation, there isn't.
Which party is at fault and which is not, we can never tell.

Unrequited Effort


Reality, he hits and startles me
My heart ponders with every beat it takes
How much have i to love to be loved in return?
Why is it that the mountains i lay down
Do not bring back even a shilling's worth?


The rumblings conquering my mind
They kill the speed of light
Tormenting me with chants
Of how much i have lost
Of the big part of my heart it has cost.


I wish I had not tried
I wish I had not pried
But wishing to reverse time
Is pointless in itself
Do the serpents soar as eagles do?


By trying, i yielded more pain
As adding salt to the wound
My attempts scraped me of my pride
Scarring my innermost feelings
A living being can only take as much.


This three-part sonata will be concluded
With an ignorant pause at the end
I will let go of this bitterness
However i will try no more
But dwell in golden silence.

Esther

Be strong and never doubt who you are just because someone thinks less of you than he or she ought to.

Be Encouraged! =)

Amazed

Listening to Michael Buble..
Wind blowing through the window..
At long last, had sufficient sleep last night..
It was & IS still great..


I was on the bus the other day and i saw this African-American. Then it struck me.. how POWERFUL God is. His ability to create us all with different skin tones, different hair quality, different features (and the list goes on).. is just utterly AMAZING!


I was so amazed...

I know he created the whole universe, the nine planets, the SUN, MOON, STARS.
I know he created animals , plants and the systems that make them function.
I know he created mountains, seas and soil just by a word from His mouth.

BUT..
What captivates me the most is,
US...His most precious creation.
How he made us SO different in SO many areas just shouts out His POWER.

Sam said something last night at ocf that i thought was really beautiful and the best ever illustration of how GREAT God is.

"He holds the world in the palm of His hands..."
That's how BIG He is..
And having that authority tells us how "WHOW" he is..

I'm going on and on and on..
Beating around the bush..
And i think i should stop now...LOL

Tataz~

Of Roses & Rocks

I was talking to my friend, X yesterday...
X is going through a somewhat complicated situation with this other person Y...
We were joking around and i told X, i'll make up a poem and dedicate it to her...LOL!

Then 30mins ago i thought, hey... "why not??"
So, here it is...
It's a teeny weeny bit crappy...
i just assembled everthing that came into my mind...
I still think it's w-e-ii-rrr-d... but nvm la... Just for the fun of it!!
muahhahahaha!!

X, you didn't expect this did you....? Anyway, this is for you...hehe!=)

Of Roses and Rocks



If only i know how he feels,
If only i know what he thinks.
Here at the footstool i'll kneel;
Praying, "Help me Lord, I'm at my brink..."


At the brink of the cliff
Where pointed rocks lay beneath,
Like spears it would penetrate,
How am i to breathe?


Not knowing if these rocks may evolve
Into a cushion of thornless roses;
The centre at which butterflies revolve,
As in imaginary realisations of romantic proses.


Nothing can i do but wonder;
Wondering if rocks would break to reveal roses
Wondering if butterflies will emerge in their graceful poses
Wondering if pointed rocks would replace my proses


Sitting in my room i pray,

"Lord, help me to hang onto this cliff
Guard my heart and make it Yours
Push me over if it is Your will
For then i know, what awaits me is real."

dedicated to X my beloved friend

kk.. i think i'll go grab a 30-minute nap. We have overnight prayer meet tonight... i hope i last! =)

A lovely thing called...DANCE

I found these pictures while googl-ing...
I love dancing...
I miss dancing...
I adore these pics...

Scene from "Take the Lead"

Random Pic

Tango

My abandoned shoe





Lovers & Dancers

There's so much attitude & expression of emotions...
Love it!

CEMETERIES

CEMETERIES... what inspired me to post this entry...?

My Human Biology project.


You see, we're supposed to gather data of the age of deaths for people in a specified era of our choice. (ie. 1980-1990...in tens). Then they went on to explain that students in the years before gathered their data by going to the cemetery. Walking among tombstones, reading dates, age of death etc. etc..

You see...i have NO problem doing all that except the "walking among the tombstones" part. Just sounded a bit eerie.. =S My classmates, Adrian and Pamela were like YAY!!!! Let's go at night!!!Let's do a roadtrip to the various cemeteries!!! And i was just yawning and going... "Oh Bother!!! It's freaking 9.30 in the morning!!"


Then, i realised.. there's nothing eerie about places like that. I mean, all the talk about GHOSTS and stuff.. We're all influenced by the media. Television, Books, Magazines...causing all these unnecessary boughs of fear!


Some of us can really imagine. I CAN'T watch horror movies.. i'll just remember the images too well and re-conjure them in my imagination. Of all times.... when i'm trying to sleep. But i know friends who can watch and laugh OR watch, get scared and forget just like that! =)
























Kk... got lots to write about ghosts vs. unfamiliar evil spirits and all

But i think i'll not go on... cause i have to finish my tute for tomorrw!!
Again last minute...
Will update tonight, after i'm done with my linguistics tute..

~BOO YAH!!


To Eunice: Put up your long hair picture after you're done painting it on... haha!

Amazing GRACE

The movie "Amazing Grace" opened my eyes...

To see beyond what i have... beyond what we, fortunate folks possess.

To the injustices of this world.

To how much more we should show grace, the way Christ did.

To be set apart, consecrated from the world and to stand up for what we think is right.

To how AMAZING His grace is to us...who are so undeserving.



GRACE in general, according to the dictionary:

- a manifestation of favor

- mercy, pardon, clemency



GRACE theologically, according to the dictionary:

-	the freely given, unmerited favor and love of God.

-	the influence or spirit of God operating in humans to regenerate or strengthen them.

-	a virtue or excellence of divine origin: the Christian graces.

I just realised that there's a similarity in both the general and theological definitions of GRACE. Obviously, it's the word "favor" which i've typed in bold.


Then, i realised... it's the manifestation of favor from one person to another AND it's the manifestation of UNMERITED favor and love of God towards men respectively.

Unmerited?? It has many definitions. So, i dictionary.com-ed.
MERIT: to be worthy of, to deserve.

I was like...., "Ahhhh... i see.

" It's God's manifestation of favor and love to those who are not worthy of & who do not deserve it."


BINGO!

Amazing Graze & My Craze

Ahhhhhh!!! Can your feel the relief?????? Aren't i radiating with RELIEF??????

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHAH!!!!

The tute that i walked into with only reading half of what i was supposed to read turned out pretty well actually! It was more of an open discussion where you throw out your ideas of the main themes brought up in the readings themselves. Since it's only the 2week, it was quite a light discussion but i managed to say "something" at least... not the word "SOMETHING" but something.. get me??? yeah.... hahhhahah!!! I'm so super hyper now...=)

Anyway, i know i shouldn't be so happy YET! I have 2 more tutes 2prepare for. Both involving 2 LONG ARTICLES with a MINIMUM of 5 pages... (note the words "long" & "minimum" )*SIGHS* ( here goes my hyperness... the sheer thought of it can just kill the joy and happiness of being tute-preparation-less) *SIGHS*... (-.-)

Uni today was EXTRAORDINARY for me... you know WHY???

Because i didn't sleep at all!!! Listened to the boring, mundane, lectures of ecosystems, population density, biodiversity... OMG!!! Like who caresss?????!!! i know, i know.... i should be a good student!! I thank God that i did A-Levels though. Eventhough i can't really remember everything, at least i have an idea of what the lecturer was droning on about.

[ I'm like so ya know.. proud... like ..yeah.......*flicks hair* (let's pretend i have long hair) ]

*White Chicks' Style*

MUAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!

Talking about long hair... Short or long is better???

SHORT

LONG

Great....i just realised i did the dumbest thing ever. I could have just put up an older pic of me with long hair rather than painting hair onto my scalp.... so DUH la me!!! Seriously... i think genieve is right!! This blurness can only be found in the "tan" genes.. at least, my family... (no offence to the not-so-blur-tans out there) *salut* hehe!

I'm supposed to go read something after this. Cause we're going out for a movie tonight. "AMAZING GRACE"- some sort of Christian movie. Apparently, it's about this court case..according to EeLin. I don't know... haven't seen the trailer. Hoping it'll be good.

Scene from movie

Yo dle -ae- hee-hooo!!!

Signing off........ *yawn*

ANTHROPOLOGISTS!!

I haven't finished my reading and i don't think i will...
I read through it and i daresay, i don't understand a word!!!! *sigh*

Anthropologists!!! Why can't they be more simple?? Why can't they write short and concise sentences rather than going on and on like a train travelling a hundred miles an hour just to convey one little TEENY WEENY point that can just be rewritten clearly into a short, neat and beautiful sentence??!!!!!

*sighs*

Reading it just gives me the headaches... seriously!!(-.-) Maybe that's why they're called anthropologists! Oh well, i guess i'll just go for my tute tomorrow and act like "i-tried-reading-but-never-understood-a-word" person. I'm sure the tutor would be "delighted" to have me. At least i tried.... *sighs*.

Kay.... enough of my complaints!

Auntie Marilyn shared a verse with me (through eelin) cause the bus which took me home on Sunday evening from church was late. I couldn't attend BS at hosanna... So, yah.. Anyway, it goes:


" You are my hiding place; You will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance. I will instruct you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you."
Psalms 32: 7,8


This verse is in line with what i've learnt over the week. I'm sure it was God's doing and i praise Him for His faithfulness!!

Another verse popped into my head a few seconds ago..


" Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight."


Sometimes, i forget how faithful He has been to me. When i look back through the chapters of my life, i realise that... there was only 1pair of footsteps in the sand at many instances in my life & those definitely...belonged to my Father. How could i be so unfaithful as to not trust wholly in Him and stop worrying?


I guess we're all humans and all of us do make mistakes. I, for one did. I forgot to give Him my whole trust. It is also written in the bible that... if He, our Father in Heaven can clothe the flowers and feed the ravens, how much more will He provide for us, His beloved children and heirs. So, why should we worry?


" All things work out for the good of those who love Him."


I'm putting my life at his altar and i know there's nothing to worry about! =)
As stated in Psalms 32: 7& 8, He will instruct and teach in the way i should go and He will counsel me and watch over me. And if i trust in Him, He in all his splendour will make my paths straight according to His perfect will. He'll do the same for you too! =)


He will never be able to straighten our paths if we don't let Him.


TRUST= Putting everything in His hands and LETTING Him take hold of what is OURS, making it HIS.


I think i'm becoming super duper duper long winded la....
Anyway, you get what i mean la...
Trust in Him..
Know that He is God..
Our provider, strength, refuge and most importantly FATHER.

Noodlilisciousness & unresolved resolution

The bio and linguistic tutes that i was supposed to do yesterday, are not completed. Actually, i haven't started yet! =( Another one of my procrastinated items. *sighs*
I really wanna change, really do...

Resolution before sem 2 started: Be more consistent in studying. Not last minute.
Status of Resolution: UNRESOLVED

Eating my noodle lunch...
Dreading the thought of hopping onto the bus in 25minutes time...
"yearning" to hear what the psychology lecturer has to say...
Can't wait to get back and go for a jog at Morialta...
CAN wait to do my tutes tonight...

My noodliliscious noodles! I lOVE CHILLI!!!!!

Kay... i gtg get ready!!!! Bla bla bla.. Yada Yada Yada.... TATAS!!!