Here i am..^^

Here i am!! It's been such a long time since i last blogged... Okay, more like put up a notice. I didn't exactly blog the last time..did i?^^

I'm listening to this song, "Reflector" and the lyrics are so meaningful..Part of it sounds like this..:

" Since i found Your love
Never needed anything to fill my heart
Even when i fall
You're always there with open arms to pick me
From the start i knew
No one else could make me feel the way u do
Everyday i just wanna grow just a little closer... "

Sometimes, when i feel alone and empty.. You know, THE feeling of just being so alone in this world.. THE feeling where you just wallow in self-pity..THE feeling where you tell yourself , "Would anyone ever know if i just disappeared from the face of this earth"..Concisely put, THE feeling of inexistence.

Yeah..i was saying, sometimes with THAT feeling lingering around, the lyrics of this song help so much. No matter how alone i felt, it seemed like He was always there.=) Anyway, i AM working on not being so emo about that. When i think about it, it IS just a matter of minimal substance cause there is joy in the Lord right?!=)

Talking bout EMOness.. I am soooo freaking emo!!! I am going to leave in 2weeks time and i am so freaked out!! It's not like i finished packing everything..but that's not what's bothering me. It's like stepping into a foreign land, not knowing a soul! My parents are not following me..So, l'm literally going ALONE...*booo hhoooooo!!!!* I dun think i even know what to do on departure n arrival. i am SO afraid but i know it's something i HAVE to go through to learn some new things..=) Besides that, i "berat hati" to leave my family and friends. I feel bad taking all this small teeny weeny things forgranted before this...You know, time with family & friends. Not making an effort in that area. Know what i mean??*sigh*

I thank God for blessing me with a few people whom i met at the University's Pre-departure Seminar. They are actually current students at the University itself and i found out that being one intake earlier than me, they are the same age as me! (Thanks to my A-Levels.. grrr..!) lol^^ And i found out that one of them is a good friend of a friend.. Such a small world huh?! It's pretty cool! ^^

My ARES has something wrong with it...i AM such a computer illiterate!! I better schedule a tutoring session with John a.s.a.p. hehe^^

I just re-read through what i wrote above and...it's ermmmm...like...full of complaints!! But i don't mean it that way! I am grateful!! Really grateful for everything!!^^

Till next time.....~~~