Past, Present & Future

I found this somewhere, wrote it down and just re-read it. It's put in such a nice way and there's truth in those words as well.

I asked God, "how do i get the best out of life?"

He answered, " never regret your pasts, handle the present with confidence, prepare for the future without fear."

Then He added, "Drop the fear, keep the faith. Don't believe your doubts and never doubt your beliefs."

It's so easy to read and understand those words but it's harder to apply it to our own lives, don't you think so?

But i think it's a really good illustration and way to actually bring ourselves to greater heights. Because regrets pull us down and keeps us in an underground dungeon of " i shouldn't have", "it would be so different if i just..." and "i should have done this instead of that".

It's hard to prepare for the future without fear. It's like trying to walk blindfold at the peak of a mountain oblivious to where all the ridges and edges are. One step might just kill. But i guess, without fear...we'd be able to open a door of possibilities. Then we would not have to regret "not knowing" or "not doing" something that we thought we should have done later on in the future.

I'm talking in circles and circles and circles againnnnn.. I'm ssssoooooo "cheong hei"..-.-

Anyways, just a train of thoughts..

Cheers~

LIES vs. TRUTHS

It's 12.58am and i i have to get up at 7.00am which is about...6 hours away! I decided about 20minutes ago that i would go to bed early tonight cause i'm totally bummed out, zapped out, electricity-less...???? Whatever it is, i'm just SO exhausted.


What am i doing here?
~ I'll answer that... cause i cannot go to bed with this load hanging off my shoulders.


Is wasting my time writing crappy stuff over here even worth it?
~ I'll answer that again... YES. Where else can i let out my pent up feelings? I don't believe in jotting down EVERY single detail of my wondrous life on this page amongst the millions of websites. But, i do believe that it's a place to release some emotions, feelings, beliefs, thoughts etc. etc. etc.

And obviously, since i'm here eventhough my brain, eyes and head are killing me proves the existence of a multitude of turmoils going on within me...
I AM anything but.... HAPPY.


Came home happy..
Ate my burger happily..
Felt tired but contented..
Felt happy even though i'd only get a maximum of 6hours of sleep..
Till i witnessed something.


Yeah..... and don't even try to guess, cause you wouldn't be able to..
Whoever who knows me and happen to read this, just don't ask WHAT or WHY cause you would not get a single valid answer from me. It would mean the world to me if you just DO NOT ask. I know it's weird writing all these and then asking u guys not to ask but it's just a place to pour out my soul to myself.. If you get what i mean. Thanks dears... =)


Sometimes, i wonder if the world is filled with lies.
Does deception rule mankind?
Does deceit lurk at every corner?
Even in the very pastures where i put my utmost trust in?

Or..

Is it just my senses that are over-working?
The subconscious part of my mind reeling off unknowingly?

All i know is that,
Our surroundings are no more genuine..
I do not know what's real and what's fake..
What i believe is true might just bounce back at me and stun me right in the face..

But still,
I cannot say for sure..
Isn't a question a question till we get an answer?
I have not gotten my answer YET and i doubt i EVER will
For the world is the world
And the world is a place where some questions are left unanswered

And i'm still asking the questions:
Is it deception or is it genuine?
Are they lies or merely truths?

I can't say for sure and will never know for sure.

Still holding on His love and guidance for:

HIS LOVE NEVER FAILS.

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Falling & Learning

My nickname on MSN:

"Humans are Complicated - How much more do we have to fall to learn? If learning is learning, ONE fall would be enough. But it is never enough for us, is it? At least, not for ME."


I was doing a flashback on my life just a week ago and i realised that no matter how many times i fall and tell myself i'm never going to fall for the same issue EVER again, i WILL still fall somehow..on purpose or even, accidentally. It's just ironic how we (sorry if you aren't..) okay.... I, do that all over again eventhough i know what the outcome would be.

For instance, i pray... "Lord, thank you so much for helping me in my exams. I couldn't have done it without you. i'm going to be more hardworking and not do last minute studying anymore. Then, i do it AGAIN. Then, i thank God AGAIN" ...and then it goes ON and ON and ON... I really can't imagine the greatness of God's patience and tolerance... Who in the world can "tahan" a child like that??! hehe..
But still, my point is that, no matter how many times we tell ourselves that this is the LAST stupid thing we'll do, it never IS the last and never WILL be..

Sometimes, i think that falling in itself is the JOY of being who we are and it is definitely the JOY of life. I wouldn't want to know all the RIGHT things, do all the RIGHT things and not feel the JOY in falling, learning and falling again... If we do ALL the right things ALL of the time, what would we learn other than "This is right and anything other than that is wrong"..???

Without falling, we would never feel pain..the anguish of a slash across our hearts. Then, we would never know that.."Whow, a 'knife' can actually hurt me..". A "knife" could be anything...

Without falling, there wouldn't be a scar. We wouldn't even know that a scar would appear after the wound heals. A scar resembles something that we can look back at and say, "yeah...i remember this thing happening and when i look at it again, i'll remember not to repeat what i did.."

Without falling, we would never know how it feels like to heal. The painful and confusing process and the victorious battle against the WHYs.

Without falling, we would never be who we are at the moment. And not being who we are, it is just pointless in itself, isn't it?

So, my conclusion would be that "falling" in life's context is what contributes to the best of who we are right now. Personally, i think it's great to fall and learn because it helps me understand people more. It helps me to be able to say, "I've been in your shoes and i know how you feel". I've always believed that the little things you do might mean the world to others. The little things like listening or just by being there when one is going through trying times might mean a lot more than u can imagine.

So, all the "wrong" things i've done in the past which caused me to fall are things which taught me and i don't regret them. Like what some say, "Why regret when it's done? What is done is done. Regretting would just pull you into a whirlpool of confusion". I used to be someone who goes, "I shouldn't have done that...etc." But after i came over here to Adelaide, i believe that whatever is done is done and i have no regrets because...isn't learning a lifelong act? And doesn't learning come from falling? So, no matter how many times i fall, i would be eager to learn and through learning only can i earnestly understand the similar things that others go through.

I've always wanted to help but like my mom says, "You can't satisfy everyone in the world". And it IS true.. but falling and learning opens up wider doors to knowing how others feel in certain life situations.

I've been writing non-stop and if i shouldn't go on and on cause i might bore you.... that is, if there is a "YOU" reading this. hehe =) Hope this post actually relates to u guys..

~CHEERS~