Unrequited Effort

My friend, Y is going through this small tiny time in his life which is not what we would consider pleasant. Looking at him i see myself and reflected are similar past experiences.

I dare say that we all go through this situation at some point of our lives.

A time where people whom you seek acceptance from; for example friends and peers, just fail you. They fail to see you for who you are. Instead, they judge you with the little they know. We sometimes ask, "why?"

Like there's no black and white in life, there's no wrong and right. At least, in this situation, there isn't.
Which party is at fault and which is not, we can never tell.

Unrequited Effort


Reality, he hits and startles me
My heart ponders with every beat it takes
How much have i to love to be loved in return?
Why is it that the mountains i lay down
Do not bring back even a shilling's worth?


The rumblings conquering my mind
They kill the speed of light
Tormenting me with chants
Of how much i have lost
Of the big part of my heart it has cost.


I wish I had not tried
I wish I had not pried
But wishing to reverse time
Is pointless in itself
Do the serpents soar as eagles do?


By trying, i yielded more pain
As adding salt to the wound
My attempts scraped me of my pride
Scarring my innermost feelings
A living being can only take as much.


This three-part sonata will be concluded
With an ignorant pause at the end
I will let go of this bitterness
However i will try no more
But dwell in golden silence.

Esther

Be strong and never doubt who you are just because someone thinks less of you than he or she ought to.

Be Encouraged! =)

Amazed

Listening to Michael Buble..
Wind blowing through the window..
At long last, had sufficient sleep last night..
It was & IS still great..


I was on the bus the other day and i saw this African-American. Then it struck me.. how POWERFUL God is. His ability to create us all with different skin tones, different hair quality, different features (and the list goes on).. is just utterly AMAZING!


I was so amazed...

I know he created the whole universe, the nine planets, the SUN, MOON, STARS.
I know he created animals , plants and the systems that make them function.
I know he created mountains, seas and soil just by a word from His mouth.

BUT..
What captivates me the most is,
US...His most precious creation.
How he made us SO different in SO many areas just shouts out His POWER.

Sam said something last night at ocf that i thought was really beautiful and the best ever illustration of how GREAT God is.

"He holds the world in the palm of His hands..."
That's how BIG He is..
And having that authority tells us how "WHOW" he is..

I'm going on and on and on..
Beating around the bush..
And i think i should stop now...LOL

Tataz~

Of Roses & Rocks

I was talking to my friend, X yesterday...
X is going through a somewhat complicated situation with this other person Y...
We were joking around and i told X, i'll make up a poem and dedicate it to her...LOL!

Then 30mins ago i thought, hey... "why not??"
So, here it is...
It's a teeny weeny bit crappy...
i just assembled everthing that came into my mind...
I still think it's w-e-ii-rrr-d... but nvm la... Just for the fun of it!!
muahhahahaha!!

X, you didn't expect this did you....? Anyway, this is for you...hehe!=)

Of Roses and Rocks



If only i know how he feels,
If only i know what he thinks.
Here at the footstool i'll kneel;
Praying, "Help me Lord, I'm at my brink..."


At the brink of the cliff
Where pointed rocks lay beneath,
Like spears it would penetrate,
How am i to breathe?


Not knowing if these rocks may evolve
Into a cushion of thornless roses;
The centre at which butterflies revolve,
As in imaginary realisations of romantic proses.


Nothing can i do but wonder;
Wondering if rocks would break to reveal roses
Wondering if butterflies will emerge in their graceful poses
Wondering if pointed rocks would replace my proses


Sitting in my room i pray,

"Lord, help me to hang onto this cliff
Guard my heart and make it Yours
Push me over if it is Your will
For then i know, what awaits me is real."

dedicated to X my beloved friend

kk.. i think i'll go grab a 30-minute nap. We have overnight prayer meet tonight... i hope i last! =)